Wishing you enough
I never really thought that I'd spend as much time in airports as I do.
I don't know why. I always wanted to be famous and that would mean lots of travel. But I'm not famous, even though I do see more than my share of airports.
I love them and I hate them. I love them because of the people I get to watch. But they are also the same reason why I hate airports. It all comes down to1 " hello" and " goodbye."
I have great difficulties with saying goodbye. Even as I write this, I am experiencing that pounding sensation2 in my heart. If I am watching such a scene in a movie, I am affected so much that I need to sit up3 and take a few deep breaths.
So, when faced with a challenge in my life, I have been known to go to our local airport and watch people say goodbye. I figure4 nothing that is happening to5 me at the time could be as bad as having to say goodbye. Watching people cling to6 each other, crying, and holding each other in that last embrace makes me appreciate what I have even more. Seeing them finally pull apart, extending their arms until the tips of their fingers are the last to let go, is an image that stays forefront7 in my mind throughout the day.
But I learn from goodbye moments, too.
Recently, I overheard a father and daughter in their last moments together. They had announced her departure and standing near the security gate, they hugged and he said," I love you. I wish you enough." She in turn said," Daddy, our life together has been more than enough. Your love is all I ever needed. I wish you enough, too, Daddy."
They kissed and she left……He walked over toward the window where I was seated. Standing there, I could see he wanted and needed to cry. I tried not to intrude on his privacy, but he welcomed me in by asking, " Did you ever say goodbye to someone knowing it would be forever?"
" Yes, I have," I replied.
Saying that brought back memories I had of expressing my love and appreciation for all my Dad had done for me. Recognizing that his days were limited, I took the time to tell him face to face how much he meant to me. So I knew what this man was experiencing.
" Forgive me for asking, but why is this a forever goodbye?" I asked.
" I am old and she lives much too far away. I have challenges ahead and the reality is, the next trip back would be for my funeral," he said.
" When you were saying goodbye I heard you say, ' I wish you enough.' May I ask what that means?"
He began to smile." That's a wish that has been handed down8 from other generations. My parents used to say it to everyone."
He paused for a moment and looked up as if trying to remember it in detail, he smiled even more.
" When we said ' I wish you enough,' we were wanting the other person to have a life filled with just enough good things to sustain9 them," he continued. Then, turning toward me, he shared the following as if he were reciting10 it from memory.
" I wish you enough sun to keep your attitude bright.
I wish you enough rain to appreciate the sun more.
I wish you enough happiness to keep your spirit alive.
I wish you enough pain so that the smallest joys in life appear much bigger.
I wish you enough gain to satisfy your wanting.
I wish you enough loss to appreciate all that you possess.
I wish enough hellos to get you through the final goodbye."
He then began to sob and walked away.
My friends, I wish you enough!
綿綿祝福
我從未想過我會像現在這樣在機場內度過那么多時間。
我不知道為什么。以前總想成名,那對我意味著有很多的旅行。但我沒有成名,可我卻總得往機場跑。
我喜愛機場,也憎恨機場。我喜愛它們是因為那里有我可以觀察的人們。但這也正是我憎恨機場的原因。總是"你好"和"再見"那一套。
說再見對我來說很是困難。即使在我寫這篇文章時,我內心也經歷著強烈的感情沖擊。如果我在一部電影里看到這種場景,我會大受感動,必須坐直深呼幾口氣。
正是因為這個原因,在生活中遇到難題時,我就會趕到我所在城市的機場看人們道別。我覺得我所遭受的任何事情都不會比不得不說再見更難受。看著人們相依相偎,哭泣著,最后一次緊緊擁抱著,我會對自己所擁有的一切倍感珍惜。看著他們最終分離,伸出胳臂直到指尖也不能再相觸……這一情景會一整天縈繞在我心頭,揮之不去。
但我也從道別的時刻得到些感悟。
最近,我無意聽到一對父女在臨別前最后時刻的對話。他們已經聽到廣播通知旅客登機了。站在安檢門旁,他們擁抱著。他說,"我愛你,祝你擁有足夠。"她回答說,"爸爸,我們在一起的生活已經足夠了,您的愛就是我所需要的一切。我也祝您擁有足夠,爸爸。"
親吻之后,她走了。……他走向我坐著的窗前。站在那里,我可以看出他想哭,也需要哭出來。我不想打擾他的隱私,但他卻主動跟我打招呼道,"你是否曾跟一個可能永不相見的人說過再見?"
"是的,我有過,"我回答。
話一出口喚起了我的回憶,想當年我曾對父親為我所做的一切表達愛意與感激。意識到他在世的日子不多了,我抓緊時間面對面地告訴他他對我有多么重要。所以我知道這位先生此時的感受。
"原諒我的冒昧,但為什么這是永別呢?"我問。
"我年老了,而她住得太遠了。有種種困難在等待我。現實是,下一次她返回時將是赴我的葬禮,"他說。
"當你們道別時我聽你們說,'我祝你擁有足夠。'請問那是什么意思?"
他笑了起來。"那是個延傳了幾代人的祝福。我的父母曾對每個人都說過。"
他停頓了片刻,仰起頭來似乎在努力回憶細節,臉上的笑意更開了。
"當我們說'我祝你擁有足夠'時,我們是在祈望對方生活中有足夠的美好東西來支撐他們,"他接著說。然后轉向我,與我分享以下的祝福,好像是在回憶中背誦。
"我祝你有足夠的陽光讓你的態度保持明朗。
我祝你有足夠的雨水讓你懂得欣賞陽光。
我祝你有足夠的幸福讓你精神活躍。
我祝你有足夠的痛苦讓生活中最小的快樂也盡放光芒。
我祝你有足夠的收獲來滿足你的需求。
我祝你有足夠的損失讓你珍惜你的擁有。
我祝你有足夠的"問候"以幫你度過最后的告別。"
然后他抽泣起來,轉身離去了。
我的朋友,我祝你擁有足夠!
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